Bitterness.
As you may have guessed from the title, I’m not in the most fantastic mood. This is not to say that I have only negative things to say, but hey: Here goes.
- I can’t code right now. This is quite a geeky thing to be annoyed at, but when I’m in a bad mood I find that coding lets me turn off the part of my brain that’s focusing on why life sucks and apply it to something useful. As it is, XNA’s website is down. Which means that my only current coding project is unusable – I’ve not got enough knowledge of using XNA’s tools to continue without the tutorials. At all.
- A grand total of one person has actually initiated a conversation with me today outside of work. At the moment, there is only one person actually speaking to me and the conversation started less than thirty seconds ago – I can count the number of my friends that I’ve spoken to today on one hand. I’ve been sat here for ages with nobody to talk to and nothing to do. Never a good situation to be in.
- My parents are trying to mess around with my sleep schedule. Again. I still wonder what part it is of them that refuses to face up to the fact that I have insomnia and it’s certainly not just going to go away overnight. I refuse to take sleeping pills, though nothing else seems to work.
- I can’t play on the Xbox 360. Because it’s in my brother’s room, and he “needs to go to bed early”. He’s in there playing it now, he’s at home all day and when I get back at about quarter to six I can’t even get a go because he’s ‘hardly been on today’ (Bullshit, I say.)
- One of my ‘best friends’ is in his house by himself, throwing parties every other day, and I’ve been invited to not one. Not even one on a weekend, after all he does know that I’ve got work. Well that’s just fine. After the way people seemed to have been too pissed to look after themselves, I’m not sure I’d want to be there anyway.
Those are the sources of my bad mood. A little vain, maybe, being annoyed because people aren’t paying much attention to me. But yes, this is a cry for conversation and social interaction. Because I feel so damn lonely, sat here with only my headphones talking to me.
~ Godders.
Comments
Emad (Jul 23, 2009)
Smiiile! Even if you are in uber-reclusive mode.
Don’t make me type out a “*hug*” on here to you Michael…
=P
Sofish (Jul 24, 2009)
‘One of my ‘best friends’ is in his house by himself, throwing parties every other day, and I’ve been invited to not one. Not even one on a weekend, after all he does know that I’ve got work. Well that’s just fine. After the way people seemed to have been too pissed to look after themselves, I’m not sure I’d want to be there anyway. ‘
He’s not having any on a weekend, his t’internet friends are round.
And if you’re not sure you’d want to be there, then why the fuck are you bitching about not being invited?!
-.-
Godders (Jul 24, 2009)
Because the fact that he said everyone’s invited and then proceeded to completely neglect to say anything to me about it at all makes me feel incredibly unwanted.
Sofish (Jul 24, 2009)
Oh, and another thing.
He’s not ‘throwing parties’ every other day, he’s had 1. And that wasn’t a party, that was 3 of us going round to his for a chat/to be lazy buggers on his sofa/to have him cook for us.
Seriously, if you know bugger all about it, they why bother mentioning it?
-.-
Sofish (Jul 24, 2009)
He knows you’re working.
Godders (Jul 24, 2009)
That’s certainly not the impression he’d given me. In fact, I remember him specifically mentioning his ’spreadsheet’ and how he’d sorted out all the groups of people that get on/don’t get on, and everyone was invited at different times but only Fran was invited to all of them.
Godders (Jul 24, 2009)
And hell, I’d have appreciated at least an “I’m sorry, but unless you miraculously get a day off it’s not possible for you to come round” but I didn’t even get that courtesy.
Sofish (Jul 24, 2009)
He’s had 1 for Fanny, Emma and me, and he’s havign 1 more next week. On a weekday. When you’re working. You know, at that job that you keep banging on about?
He knew you’d be busy (don’t we all) so he didn’t bother inviting you to either of them.
Sofish (Jul 24, 2009)
*having